was doing my maths tutorial the other day.. and i was kinda procrastinating.. there was a voice inside me going, "liane, you have been working hard the whole day and you are tired. come on, go take a rest." of course, that's not true! cos i merely did a few questions.. then i heard my mum calling out to me.. and i went to the kitchen to where she was..

i looked out of the window.. there! dixiesngshihan was downstairs all dressed up in her kebaya, with her red lipstick and blue eyeshadow and of course, her luggage.. a cab then came and she boarded it.. it was like 10pm and she was going on her next flight! sometimes i really admire her bravery. air stewardess leh.. it's not easy.. it's super tiring.. and you are far away from home almost all the time.. had a chance to talk to her the other time and she looked really tired.. and i could sense some regret in her.. but no choice.. she has to go on for at least 2 years.. so i shouldnt complain ya? studying is so much better than having to face the real world.. and what's more, be away from home.. and of course, she made the decision of flying on her own.. nobody forced her to it.. but sometimes, you'll never know if sthg's your cup of tea if you don't try.. yupp. haha. so to all my friends doing part-time work + study or those who are working~ jiayou ba~

oh and i bought the Secret soundtrack!! haha. all music pieces except for a few.. was listening to it.. and really.. music really brings out alot of things.. the Flashback track's a very good example.. once you listen to it, you can already picture all the scenes in your mind..

had piano lesson just now and ahhhhh, im stressed again ): but i chose to take up lessons again so i guess i have to go on no matter what!! sighs. i think the most often thing i do in life is to waste time. haha. lotsa stuffs undone. *screams* ooh and btw, the channel8 show that 刘恺威 (小安 in 真情) is super shuaiii~ :p

okayys.. ive wasted enough time! ciaos!

BOO. i saw an ah gong just now who had no seat when i was on the bus.. i wanted to give my seat up to him.. but I DIDNT DARE! ahhhh. i don't know why. but i just didnt dare la! very paiseh. now i feel so guilty. *sniffs* ): poor ah gong, who still had to carry his grandson's school bag. ):

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怎么办！told myself to not hurt anyone again. looks like i just did? but i believe and hope we'll be fine soon? just as friends ya. if not it'll be damn 尴尬 during cca. sighs. i don't think i can find the feeling of liking someone wholeheartedly so soon, yet. unless.. the person's really so worthy of my liking? wait, that sounds very selfish. i guess.. the feelings are just not there ba? *shrugs* ahhhh 好烦啊！why am i getting myself into this pile of mess.. =/

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and now for my all-time favourite..

My Jesus, my Savior
Lord, there is none like You
All of my days, I want to praise
The wonders of Your mighty love

My comfort, my shelter
Tower of refuge and strength
Let every breath, all that I am
Never cease to worship You

Shout to the Lord, all the earth, let us sing
Power and majesty, praise to the King
Mountains bow down and the seas will roar
At the sound of Your name

I sing for joy at the work of Your hands
Forever I'll love You, forever I'll stand
Nothing compares to the promise I have in You

(:

星星不见了! ):

short break's overrr~

hmm for Duet Superstar, one pair of seniors got First and the other pair was visibly upset. but they were okay after sometime.. i would say it was a good try.. i mean they tried their best. so just treat it as a learning experience? and when they finally master the dancing parts and everything someday, im sure they are gonna do very well!! :D

Oh yea, and the filming of the Hey! Gorgeous thingy was so boring la. i was at the booth hogging on to the karaoke set most of the time. hehe. NOT ON MY OWN OF COURSE. ohh and at least we got to go to the court to support Hoyang and pals. Note: it's Hoyang and pals. We went there to support HY okay. even HY himself doesn't believe. 没良心！catching CB in action is 顺便 de lor. hahahahaha. Jer, you CANNOT comment on this part okay. don't be a spoiler!

Yea and i was damn HIGH yesterday. don't know what happened. feeling so apologetic to those who were shocked yesterday. hahaha. i think some seniors crap with me until they feel very tired also. Either that or they kena suan-ed by me until they 哑口无言. Yea and i got to know Lishi better cos Bao abandoned me for her JJ frens.. haha. sounds like im very bad.. but Bao, you don't have to worry la. we got our 定情之物 le okay. Lishi's a niceee new friend who puts in great effort in laughing at my jokes. :D anyway, i think we have about 20 more new members from the past two days. boo! ): i don't like eh. too many people, not cosy anymore. and somemore, may have to split classes.

Oh ya, and there are already 3 guys from the club who asked me to put on contact lenses! what's wrong with specs? i shall go get a super AA pair. hahahaha.

Went Halo Bar with Partner, Suyee, Lishi, Vincent and Jerry at night! don't like having to wait like soooo long just to sing one miserable song.. ended up playing the soccer thingy with Vincent.. I WIN! *smugs* basically it's cos i anyhow play la. just play rough abit. haha. so damn tired after that. then longbang Cheng Song's 顺风车 home after that.

Poof! it's back to the boring boring lessons next week and for the whole month of October, i'll be having 4-day weeks. actually if you compare this timetable to the sec school or jc days, it's nothing. come to think of it, maybe im just getting lazier. *snorts*

Our pics at the booth!

ah BAO~ (:

Lishi~ (:

De duan~ (:

okay, shall upload the pics at Halo Bar once i get them from Partner :D

bah. don't really know what to blog about..

hmm tmr will be the last day of student week! kinda excited about it cos all of us will either be at our singing club booth or somewhere else pulling ppl to join us! don't know why, but i just like all these buzzing around.. the feeling is just like how we used to 招生 for CO those days.. and all the times the whole orchestra stayed back after school to polish and tune our instruments a day before a concert.. haha. I MISS THE CO DAYS!! ehh but our dress code tmr's "superstar"!! i got no nicenice clothes to wear la! >.<

anyways, other than that, we'll be supporting our 4 seniors for Duet Superstar finals! hope both teams will get First AND Second so singing club will get more club fund!! yays~ haha. im pretty sure they'll do well (: my 偶像s!! haha.

Also, the team from "Hey! Gorgeous" will be coming down too.. just don't understand why the guys are all so excited to see Fiona Xie.. haha. k la, quite cute la.

Today, someone go NS le.. haha. hmm, not that im sad about it.. cos we haven been talking properly since 1 month ago, after all that happened.. some things can never be forgotten.. and i won't choose to forget them as well.. the memories, they will be kept.. haha can only hope that he'll be fine and 我们有缘再见吧！:D

the club's gonna celebrate a senior's bday tonight and it'll be till 12am! till now, my mum's still rather disapproving of me going for such stuff.. esp when it's till so late.. but 偏偏 all the activities that they organise are always that late.. i don't know whether my mum's suppose to let go cos afterall, uni's another phase of my life altogether.. or whether i should just not go for all these activities so as to please her.. sighs.

alrights! till then!

星期二的星星特别亮！哈哈！ :P

we're having a short break this week! and next week's student week! but i have a mini topical test on monday! ): anyways, JEROME! this is for you!

开往山顶上的车子里
播着让人想哭的歌曲
好想换个电台转来转去
却转不开我难过的心

或许因为你爱看夜景
说的话也闪烁带着谜
不会吓得问谁抢去了你
以后要习惯留点安全距离

有时候交谈变得空洞
沉默却像沟通
当情人那么沉重
当朋友反而轻松

有时候孤独可以寂寞
也可以是自由
能安慰自己的人比较容易快乐

jiayou alrights! OG8 will always be there for you! ehh but if they don't agree, i've nthg to say! :p

and thanks to eyecandy for talking to me!! yays. you made my day yday :D :D :D

怎么办？我好像真得有点小失望。。。
突然间觉得自己的得失心太重了。。。
可能这也是个blessing in disguise 吧。。。
这样我也不会给自己太大的压力做到最好。。。
虽然我一直以为自己可以。。。
很奇怪，为什么人总是口是心非？

recently there are so many people who are sad.. over relationships, results etc. feel kinda bad that i can only lend a listening ear these days.. i cant seem to give any good and proper advice anymore.. im starting to doubt myself. ha. anyway, confidence boosting session this thurs and im down with a really baaaad sorethroat. this is bad.. very bad.

anyway, take care people!! i dont wanna know of anymore sad people!

): it's confirmed. we are OUT. sighs. i keep having the feeling i caused my partner to be out la. i mean, he won champion in another school comp last year? and.. how can it be that the standards have been raised so high this year? >.< but as far as i know, i didnt make any mistake. and i thought that was my best shot. *shrugs*

there's so much to be done. yet i just cant get myself to sit down and finish everything all at once, without my mind wandering. this is a torture.

i should stop becoming close to guys right.. if not history's gonna repeat itself again. >.< hoho i shall just be a nun.

oh btw, css2 benjamin happens to be Abby's lil bro's friend!! ohhhmyyyy~ Hey Abby!! if you are reading this, you know what to do right!! hahahahaha. :D

bleah. fragmented thoughts. shall look forward to this week. after these 2 weeks, the timetable's gonna be very packed again.

this mv damn sad. )'= Ella and 蔷蔷. yup.



till then!

ehh. we didnt make it thru the auditions i suppose? since we didnt receive any email from the committee. were our hopes too high? no, i don't think so. i think we did perfectly fine the other day. many people told us we sounded good. okay, i think my partner's taking it easy, which is very good. but not for me. ahhhh. this is the second competition i didnt even make it thru the first round. and both are only school competitions, which means small competitions. (oh ya and not counting thaaaat competition that we managed to get sthg due to the super few number of contestants.) hoho. no more competitions for you, liane. your singing's way too bad. ]=

YAYS. For those of you who have been very concerned bout Yuqian and i for the past few months (yeah, there are actually quite a few who have been constantly probing me on this whenever we get to talk), im sooooo glad to say that we are fine already!! :D :D :D im so happy~!! Actually i think she'll read this.. but aiyah, i don't care la. haha i think i sound like we are les or sthg but.. oh whatever.

Anyway, i merely wanted to wish her good luck for her pageant tonight. i mean after not talking for more than 4 months, i guess it was time to break the ice. didnt expect her to reply so readily!! and somemore, she was the one who continued the conversation plus! decide that we should meet up some day. im so surprised. cos i guess the both of us are at times, just too 硬头 when it comes to such stuff. and i expected just a "thank you" from her. yepps.

and these 4 months plus.. i cant say that i've been harping on this friendship all the time.. but somehow it's always been at the back of my mind. like how i will suddenly think of the things we did or the things she say etc and i cant help wondering when we will EVER talk to each other again. yupps. i think all the guys will be like "aiyah, girls.. always like that.." but the conflict (or misunderstanding? im still not too sure) that happened in April was a major one i guess. i mean, i think my AJ clique has seen the most out of YQ and i.. how we had many many small quarrels thru out those two years in AJ.. but this one is one that nobody can help us out i guess. And according to how well i know her, she must have been thinking of how to settle this problem too. but it just happened that no one wanted to initiate things. and seriously, it's difficult la.

but it was so damn funny last night! after not talking for soooo long, there were soooo many things to update each other on and our smses that came and went were like 3/4 pages at a go.. and really la, nothing can express this kind of happiness!! finally! it's like sthg off my chest, finally! and it's like one million times better than getting to see my eyecandy in school! bwahahahahax. :D

haha and sian la, i've afternoon lesson later! and it's SATURDAY today. stupid me chose this stupid timetable. but 3 more saturdays and there'll be no more saturday lessons!